The Fear to Act

It's the fear to take action. The fear that I'll be wrong. That what I say will be insensitive or damaging.

That everything I do is nonsensical and ultimately worth nothing.

I want to say things, but I don't know how.

This is my third blog, my fourth attempt at blogging. It's always the same. It peters out when I realize that I'm just rambling, that of course nobody will want to read it because it's just me talking to myself.

And maybe that's all it'll ever be.

Just me talking to myself. Online.

Because it's one thing to journal in a little notebook. It's another thing to put words in a form that will never die (because, y'know, the internet is forever).

So I have to think about what I'm telling myself.

I have to really consider what it is I'm trying to say.

And I have to sit and think through issues that are always in the back of my mind but never brought to the front. I have to realize what I think.

So if I have to think through my fingers and the keyboard of my sad little laptop, I'll do that.

Don't be afraid to act.

Don't be afraid.